Why I am eclectic in my Spirituality.

Right, or wrong we are all created with our own mind, and given the gift of choice, and belief. No man has right to judge, and condemn another. Truth is, even the Bible, in Matt 7:1 says " Judge (Condemn) not, lest you be Judged. The sad thing is, so many Christian organizations, churches, those who claim the faith, are some of the worst in my own experiences of judging, and condemning, Yes I also for some years in my life was on the other side doing the judging, all in the name of I am called to go and preach etc.

The hypocrisy, they, not all, but many say we welcome all, if you have a calling we will back you. I spent years as I felt in my heart a call to ministry full time. I was even prophesied over. Told by a pastor I was effeminately called into ministry. I completed 2 years of ministry school, 6 months of internship, to later be told point blank we in truth were never planing to credential you. We were going to put it off hope you forget as we have seen people do not like you. I asked for proof. I was told because we do not see you being invited out, or anyone sitting with you. Thais cause I sat more in front and not many liked the front row . Truth is I had gone often out to lunch with some, not every singe Sunday.. I also did not have the well paying jobs many had, or cars, nor was I dating, married, or had kids. In the AG assemble of God I learned some insider thinking. If you are a single woman you have little chance getting credentialed.

Truth is I did end up talking about my pastor wrong wrong and gossip is sin. I DID NOT ever ever accuse her of punching me in tummy. However a elder told my pastor I did. Hence I am blackmailed, my work accomplished for those years destroyed.

I spent over a year sick, crying every night to my savior, and the Father and no peace. I prayed help me to forgive, I need peace to move on. Notta. After years of being hurt, lied to, abandoned, severely judged, not being allowed to defend myself. I left the faith to go exploring,

It was a long journey to alternative spirituality. I am today eclectic, some of my original faith which I cannot get out of my heart, but for me I have mixed what works for me, and yet still seeking,

I never claim to been perfect, but I am honest.

The hypocrisy

A hypocrite (Greek, HUPOKRITES) is a play-actor, a pretender, one who outwardly goes through motions which are insincere. Hypocrisy is a genuine problem that exists and often affects religious people. Jesus warned of the consequences of hypocrisy and described its symptoms to the Pharisees in His day. "Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you are like whitewashed tombs which indeed appear beautiful outwardly, but inside are full of dead men's bones and all uncleanness. Even so you also outwardly appear righteous to men, but inside you are full of hypocrisy and lawlessness" (Matt. 23:27-28).

The Pharisees were a sect of the Jewish hierarchy. They made up the body of the religious leaders of that day. They went to the daily temple prayers religiously, gave their tithes and offerings, were avid students of the scriptures, kept the Sabbath day, and followed the commandments and teachings of Moses to the letter. They had the appearance of being very religious and upstanding Jews. Yet Jesus said that they were "diseased" and rotten inside, full of hypocrisy and iniquity. He described them as "whitewashed tombs," or "death covered with a coat of paint." "For I say to you, that unless your righteousness exceeds the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven" (Matt. 5:20).

Another view as as bad as my experiences has been, not everyone is going to harm or hurt you

Not all will break your spirit. Not saying no one will offend you. They will, and so will you.

Not all are hypocrites

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Perhaps you, too, have felt justified in either avoiding or rejecting the Christian faith because of some instance(s) of disgusting hypocrisy that you have encountered in those identifying themselves as Christians. If so read on, as we offer four key responses to the line… “Hey, I would never be a Christian. I mean, look at all the hypocrites in the Church!” “Well, we'd be glad to move over—there's always room for one more. And furthermore, if you ever find the perfect church, please don't join it. You'd spoil it.” Does that response strike you as a being a bit too smart-alecky? Perhaps so, but before you totally discount it, consider the point that is being made. Is this not a case of the pot calling the kettle black? Are not four fingers pointing back at you as you point at the Church? Are you not a bit like the father who once screamed at his teenage son: “Kid, if I've told you once, I've told you a million times—don't exaggerate!” “You're right. There is far too much hypocrisy in the Church. And there always has been. But it's certainly not being condoned.” Read more at: http://christiananswers.net/q-aiia/hypocrisy.html

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